Do you remember all the hubub and worry about Y2K. I was rather hopeful the world would end and it was by far the most anti-climactic new years I've ever celebrated. Hmmm.
This year was anti-climactic, but I had fun just staying home and relaxing with my buddy Erin.
Life has been strange.
I am starting a second job tomorrow, and I'm sort of nervous. It's in food service sorta. We do concessions and catering. But I am looking forward to kicking the crap out of my debt sooner, rather than later.
My body is again revolting and doing weird things to me.
First, I had my lap-band tightened back in October when I got back from China, and I had restriction for about two days and then I had zero. I could eat basically whatever I wanted for about two months, which was very frustrating.
The whole point of the lap-band is to help you feel full sooner, so you eat fewer calories. Well, I did not feel full on less food. I could eat full meals if I didn't just choose to stop. It just made me very angry.
So, anyway, I go in on wednesday to have it tightened again and to ask if he knows what the honk is wrong with this thing, and why it's isn't working right.
I get in the surgery room, and the first thing the surgeon does is tell me how disappointed he is in my me for gaining a pound in the two month period, and interrogating me on what I'm doing wrong (even though I have been following the rules).
Then, I tell him that I've had no restriction for two months, and that I can eat virtually anything, but I chose to stop eating even though I'm still hungry. He interrogates me again.
Finally, he gets me up on the table and doesn't even wait for the anesthetic to go into effect before he stabs me with a giant needle and I let out quite a yelp, and he just kept on stabbing.
They get me up to the xray machine so he can watch the liquid go through and I take a drink and the liquid just stops. It won't go through my band. It just sits there and refluxes up a bit. So, it was really tight...he was tempted to take some liquid out. He said, I don't know what you're talking about, but I can't put any more liquid in there. There is only so much the band can do, you have to do your part.
So, completely frustrated at this point, I finally look at him and yell, NO! LISTEN TO ME! I have been doing what I am supposed to, why is this thing not working. You just do not understand that I've not felt restricted for two months!! He said, Ok, Ok...I'll see you in my office in two weeks and see how you are doing. And I said...FINE!
As soon as he turned around to walk over to the computer, I just started sobbing. The nurse was like, OK, let's see if we can't get ya a glass of water and get ya calmed down in the recovery area.
I told the nurse that I felt like when I have taken my car to a mechanic and I tell them what the car is doing, and they take it out for a drive and come back and say "well it didn't do it while, I was driving, so I don't think there is anything wrong with it". I know something is wrong with me, but it didn't do that while I was at the doctors office, so he just thinks I'm crazy or not following the rules.
I can't begin to tell you how incredibly frustrating this is to me. I have worked really, really hard. And to be treated like I'm just some fat, dumb hillbilly who spends her nights eating twinkies and bonbons, and then wonders why she is not losing weight, is just not fair.
I am also freezing, pretty much all of the time.
At first I thought it was because I lost all this weight, and I am sure some of it is. But the weird thing is that I can be wearing long johns, jeans, socks, slippers, a tank top, long sleeved t-shirt, a hooded sweatshirt, and be wrapped in two blankets and still be freezing, in a house that is about 75 degrees.
My skin will feel warm to the touch, but I'm shivering or I feel cold from within.
So, my mom, says "I think you should talk to your doctor about that".
Well, my doctor is in China right now adopting a baby (which I'm so jealous of, but the point is she is out of the country).
So I see a different doctor in the office.
She was completely stumped. Which doesn't surprise me. If there is something odd or rare, it will probably happen to me.
Think of it this way, There is less than a 1 % chance that people will have any complication with the lap-band!! Guess who is in the 1%? I am!!! Less than one percent of the world has a condition called Hidradenitis suppurativa...Guess who has it? I DO, I DO!!
I am like murphy's law gone wrong.
So, they did some blood work, but weren't hopeful they'd find anything. So she said we could monitor it for a few months and see if we notice a pattern develop. So, for my birthday I went to shopko and bought myself an electric blanket, to hopefully help me get to sleep at night. Sweet MERCY!!!
Anyway...moving on!
Christmas was good. I went to Scottsbluff and I got to see lots of people I had not seen in years. It was a blast and a bit of a preview to my 10 year class reuinion.
Call me crazy, but I'm really flippin excited for my 10 year reunion. I think it will be good fun.
I also got to spend time with my madre and brother and sister-in-law. I miss them a lot.
The Legislative Session starts on January 7th, so that will be kind of crazy because we'll have 20 new senators. And I 'm gonna miss Ernie so much.
So, this is my birthday month. I alway celebrate my birthday for the whole month, but I never know whether to start or end on my birthday. So this year I think I will start on my birthday.
It call it my Month of Jubilee!
On January 9th a movie that I've been dying to see is coming out, but I have something planned that night, so I may have to wait until my birthday. We'll see what I can figure out.
Clint Eastwood is putting out a new movie called Gran Torino. It looks amazing. Click on the link here to watch the trailer. I adore Clint Eastwood. He is an incredible actor, but an even better director. I mean look at Mystic River and Million Dollar Baby, and The Changeling. The man is a genius!
Anyway...for my birthday I will be going to a stars game. Which I'm super-excited about.
Then for the next night, I'll be going to a starts game. Which I'm super-excited about! Is there an echo in here?
Then on the 18th, I think I may have some sort of birthday party. We shall see.
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